Here it is. Another night, and the vacuum is choking me. It is 9: 30. I don t mind quiet during the day. I enjoy it. I keep busy. But something happens to me during this period, and I can't stand that stands here by just another minute.
So I drive down the road, within walking distance of the local scene. I have several places from which to choose where I know I'll find the company. I might catch some live music. I just go for a drink and before I realize, are closed and I'm taking a taxi home. This happens too often.
Yet, for a couple of hours that are surrounded by people who smile, find me, make me laugh and I forget unhappy as I am. All are full of hope and potential I started on this journey are surrounded with while in that fake sense of intimacy and friendship.
I'm realizing this as time approaches. Tonight, I will sit with my loneliness. There are other ways to escape from watching a movie, read a book, write a short story, call a friend, the possibilities are endless, and there is so much I could do.
Never minded being at home at night when I was home with her husband and children. Even though they were outside the city, or a night out with friends, I knew who lived there and would be home.
I'm alone in this place. I filed with memories and the loss and can t stand it. I was impatient to be themselves. Get clear, finding my next steps. What happened?
Snuck up on me. I didn't realize that I was on the Lam, hiding from the truth. The truth is that I am scared to death. I'm afraid that I will fail to be independent, have the freedom to choose whatever and enjoy the success I can create. I'm afraid of success and I am afraid of failure and I therefore remain stuck in the oblivion of the escape.
There has got to be a better way. In fact I know that there is, which is what got me here in the first place. I can take back control. I stay at home tonight, and dwell in possibility, renew hope once I had and stop looking behind me. I have a whole life to create and I will start now.
Sadie Jackson, a fictional heroine created by Cheri Valentine, is back on the dating scene for the third time. After two marriages of trial, she is bound and determined to get it right. She can be nauseatingly optimistic and enjoys recounting his experiences of dating with humor and compassion. Follow his dating escapades in this work of fiction.
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